I don’t get it. I have every reason in the world to be happy as fuck right now, but I just want to break out in tears. Literally this past week was the best experience I’ve ever had in my entire life and next Friday my dream could have its beginning. I’m so happy yet so sad. My boyfriend pisses me off, I hope he doesn’t see this but we’re just so different I can’t even deal with it. Now I have to leave California and go back to Jersey. I just don’t want to see anyone.